Im Not Ok - MCR
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Meet My Maker - Good Charlotte

very brief, but to the point

well, since my last post ive sat for my term 3 exams, and it wasnt as bad as i thought it would be,
ive had love lost and love gained, friends found once more, real friends found, friends lost, and lost more.
i'm about to begin my industrial training tomorrow (6/3) and i'll be at equatorial KL for the next 3 months~~ so whoever is reading,, u can give me a call if your in the area~~ ;) if i can, after work we go have a drink~~ =D

i shall end the post by keying this

"i am strong for you are within me"

i miss you,
i see u,
i eat with u,
i chill with you,
i confide in you,
i talk to you,
u do hear me,
but do u listen?

im with you, but are you there?
i miss u, do u see it? u think your there for me, but are you listening? cause i know u hear me~ i know u care, i really do~~ jz i need a freind who'd listen to me when with others to,, not jz when we're talking only.
i dont take u for granted, its jz i care so much it hurts me to say this to u.
argh, this is so painful~~ #*()&%^)@*

mobile phone pet peevs

u know, alot of things can be done by a mobile phone~~ which really ticks me off honestly~~ but most of the time i dont bother cause i dont care~~ where as in fact i always want to punch or slap the person who is on the other line~~ regardless of the fact that he/ she is my friend or not~~

peev no 1 is that when i call for some one~~ i expect the person to answer~~ even if the person is busy with something~~jz tell me so and shall call back at a more reasonble time~~ cause i wanna talk to u and depending on who is with u~~ the other party as well.

peev no 2 is when i call a number i DO have in my contact list~~ and another person picks up~~ dont go and make IDIOTIC noises~~ it jz annoys me~~ for what reason does it bring when u do that sort of immature act?~~ no benefit what so ever right? say its someone important whom needs to talk to ther person he or she is calling and a friend answers with a stupid voice~~ its misleading and causes people to be worried or just pissed~~ so STOP doing so to who ever u are~~

peev no 3 is those idiots whom claims to be an officer of the law~~ puh-lease laa if u were to do that kind of childish act~~ doing it when u know how and indicidual is like~~ if its a police officer~~ give proper information if u wanna fool that person~~ if not~~ dont waste ur credit and energy for being a fool!!

P.S, i may seem cranky cause i havent slept a wink since the day before yesterday as i had attended the overnight vergil at lourdes klang~~ for those who know where it is~~ great~~! for those who doesnt,,its in klang~~~ DUHHH~~ if u want~~ take the ktm up until klang~~ nad its just 10 mins walking distance

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i dno man~~ ive been feeling very emo/ negative/ sad/ depressed and every little negetive feeling these couple of days~~~
recently ive been listening to linkin park again and i feel that this song is connected to me~~ so~~ do enjoy reading the lyrics for u may know i've been feeling~~
cheers to ya~~ ;)

From The Inside by Linkin Park
I don’t know who to trust no surprise
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts sift through dust and the lies
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you

Tension is building inside steadily
(Everyone feels so far away from me)
Heavy thoughts forcing their way out of me
(Trying not to break but I’m so tired of this deceit)
(Every time I try to make myself get back up on my feet)
(All I ever think about is this)
(All the tiring time between)
(And how trying to put my trust in you just takes so much out of me)

[Chorus]
Take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you

I won’t waste myself on you
You
You
Waste myself on you
You
You

I’ll take everything from the inside and throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you

Everything from the inside and just throw it all away
Cuz I swear for the last time I won’t trust myself with you
You
You

good bye's and hello's

good bye 2008~~ and HELLO 2009~~
2008 has been a memorable year for me~~ a year filled with activities~~ spiritually, physically, emotionally, mentally and many many more~~
lets see what i can remember~~

in January i went for my Confirmation Camp and received Confirmation~~ :D~~ two of the best days of my life~~ XD (crap~~ i cant load pics~~ so it'll be a post filled with words ppl~~ -.- )

February was a time i had my singles party come CNY party~~ lol~~ had lots of drink~~ i think so~~ XD cnt remember much of it anymore~~ haha~~ must be all the alcohol killing the memory cells~~ =D

march was birthdays galore~~ haha~~ celebrated bdays, received my SPM cert and also left for NS~~ met loads of ppl there whom ill not forget~~ had an awesome time there~~ loss loads of weight~~ :D met my old buddy from kasturi and talked bout the good old day of 2005~~ lol. met a few ppl whom till now im very close with~~

April, i still remained in camp~~ and i think i managed to come home for some sort of holiday~~

may. its still the same~~ remained in camp~~ had open day in camp i think~~ haha~~ loads of the trainees families came and looked around~~ and i think my mom and aunt came as well~~ they met a few of my NS buds~~ twas a good time~~

June.. i came home early~~ hehe~~ also had a party~~ for god knows why~~ i cnt remember the occasion~~ managed to meet up with lam though~~ at the party~~ cause he too had holiday. it was due to the cuti penggal thing~~ i cnt remember~~

July was when i started college~~~ met with danial after such a long time~~ after 6 months due to him being in USA~~ met alot of ppl in college~~ had fun there through out the whole time being in college~~ also in July i celebrated my birthday with my buds~~ i was rather quiet~~ just cause i was savouring the moment~~ as i missed the gang~~

august was independence day~~ didn't do much~~~ "celebrated" at home by going to bed early~~ XD

Sept was the end of term one in college~~

October was the beginning of term 2~~ got transfer ed to another group~~ got a new set of friends~~ i was bummed bout it~~ but in the end it was a good thing~~ i got loads more friends now~~ :D and it made college even more fun~~

November mid way through college and it started to has its effects on me~~ it was sooo stressful~~ loads of assignments to complete~~ thank god i managed to finish everything in time~~ and all the assessments~~ studied and struggled like crazy~~ wa soo freaked out~~ :S

Decembers~~ xmas month~~ holiday period and final assessment~~ it was a hectic period i tell u~~ all the emotions of wanting to go on break so badly got boggled up inside~~ plus with the finals assessment JUST BEFORE holidays~~ twas sooooooooo lazy to wanna study~~ but i had too~~ studied like crazy~~ did FAIRLY ok~~ no regrets as i did my best~~ then~~ xmas~~ xmas this year wasn't that spectacular~~ celebrated in KL~~ managed to contribute to the celebrations~~ i did my mash tatoes~~ and ppl loved it~~ it was sooooo smooth and light~~ ;D and also salad~~ i loved it~~ though it was a lil TOO MUCH~~ haha and NOW~~ its new years eve~~ and im here typing on my laptop~~ wishing all my readers a HAPPY NEW YEAR~~ =D

:D

)(*)(~~MERRY CHRISTMAS~~)(*)(

TO ALL MY READERS~~
HOPE Y'ALL HAD AS GOOD TIME THIS YEAR END
AND THAT NONE OF U HAD A REGRETFUL YEAR~~
SAY 'GOODBYE' TO 2008
AND 'HELLO'2009
CHEERS PEOPLE~~ :D